In the depths of every human soul, a true spectacle of passions and contradictions unfolds, where lofty aspirations clash with inevitable weaknesses and fears.

The Eternal Inner Conflict

In the depths of every human soul, a true spectacle of passions and contradictions unfolds, where lofty aspirations clash with inevitable weaknesses and fears. The introduction to this turbulent game begins with the realization that physical pain gives way to an agonizing struggle of the spirit, where the ideals of love, freedom, and creativity come into conflict with base instincts and sinfulness. It is precisely this inner split that makes the heart tremble with eternal longing and creates a feeling of emptiness that lingers even after the body departs.

The main body of the text tells how a human being, endowed with the capacity to love and create, finds themselves at the center of conflicting forces. The highest values of the soul are constantly engaged in battle with the darker aspects of nature, binding the mind to debilitating fears and false beliefs. It seems that liberation from these chains offers an illusion of joy, yet it only temporarily dulls the awareness of the profound inner drama. Our being, riddled with contradictions, seeks true connection and genuine harmony, but at times the artificiality of external consolations only intensifies the internal conflicts, reminding us of the eternal task—to find balance between the spiritual and the corporeal.

The conclusion emphasizes that genuine freedom and spiritual perfection can be achieved only through the acknowledgment of this relentless inner struggle. Recognizing one’s dual nature is the first step on the path to profound internal liberation and harmony. Only by accepting both the light and the darkness within us can we overcome the contradiction inherent in our essence and draw closer to true wholeness.

What could be the most challenging aspect of life for a person, and why do internal issues often prove unbearable?

It is not so much physical suffering—which, as is known, passes or ends with the death of the body—but rather what occurs deep within the soul: an eternal, insatiable struggle between conflicting desires and values. This inner contradiction manifests as the collision of the ideals of love, freedom, and creative calling with the inescapable reality of human frailties and sinfulness, evoking a sense of endless longing and inner void.

For example, as stated in one text:
"Pure tragedy arises when people are completely free and when values clash—the value of love with the value of freedom, or creative calling, or the highest value of love for God and divine perfection—when one is forced to fight for the eternal godlike image of a person, with which love is intertwined but with which it may also come into conflict. In the depths of love, enmity unfolds. People too often are afraid to open their hearts due to false instincts, erroneous beliefs, misguided ideas, and false fears of society, thereby closing off the possibility of authentic connection. People's lives are marred by atavistic fears and terrors. Liberation from these is a great moral task, but such liberation not only brings the joy of life but also ushers in a new tragedy of life." (source: link txt)

This assertion shows that the inner struggle stems precisely from the clash between lofty ideals and the reality of human nature, leading to endless suffering of the soul.

Another quote underscores that within a person, despite the presence of many noble qualities in both conscience and intellect, there exists an even greater force that continuously opposes this goodness:
"A human being naturally possesses much goodness in both conscience and reason, yet at the same time there is even more that constantly battles with that goodness. And just as nature itself seems to contradict itself, so does a person endlessly suffer the ceaseless struggle between spirit and flesh, between their higher and lower aspirations. Even if a person deliberately closes their eyes and ignores this universal 'affliction of life,' if they try to find oblivion by fully immersing themselves in sensuality and so-called pleasures of life, this self-deception only temporarily removes the horror of the awareness of the emptiness of one’s life and the cyclical suffering. Nonetheless, the very fact of this universal 'affliction of life' remains, making itself felt even more acutely in moments of spiritual sobriety and forcing one to seek one solution or another." (source: link txt)

Thus, internal problems prove unbearable because they touch the very core of human existence, forcing a person to constantly feel the conflict between who they are and who they aspire to be. The internal struggle—characterized by the collision of lofty spiritual aspirations with base instincts and sinfulness—creates an unyielding source of soul-wrenching suffering that will not subside even with the end of physical life.