In the modern world, I feel a distinct aversion to situations that threaten my individuality and where another person’s life force suppresses my true self.

The Struggle for Authenticity in an Oppressive World

In the modern world, I feel a distinct aversion to situations that threaten my individuality and where another person’s life force suppresses my true self. I am disturbed by the presence of people whose energy makes me feel insignificant and inadequate – moments when meeting someone leads to an inner detachment, making it impossible to fully express oneself. Sometimes, it is precisely the company of those who possess all the qualities I have always dreamed of having that reminds me of my own shortcomings, provoking feelings of envy and jealousy and undermining my inner balance. The pressure from overt authority also seems overwhelming, when any dissent is suppressed and personal opinions lose their meaning. Such a dictatorship, which aims to mold us into obedient performers, only intensifies the sense of oppression and rejection. Consequently, I invariably reject both those who are incapable of respecting individuality and self-expression and the situations in which tyrannical power dominates, depriving everyone of the freedom to breathe and feel confident. This inner conflict reminds me of the importance of finding a space where one can be oneself, where mutual respect and the encouragement of personal growth prevail.

What things or situations most often evoke rejection in you?

In my view, rejection is first and foremost sparked by situations in which I feel that my individuality is threatened, as well as by the presence of people whose energy makes me feel inadequate and internally insufficient. For example, there are moments when another person’s presence not only arouses in me a sense of aversion, but also a kind of detachment, making it seem as though I cannot express my true feelings and remain myself. As described in one of the sources:

"It seems that their presence harbors some kind of threat for me; it evokes in me aversion or a form of subservient detachment. In their presence, I am unable to express myself and live. Others evoke in me feelings of envy and jealousy: in their person, they embody everything I would like to be, and their presence reminds me that I am not that. Their spiritual strength and intellect point me back to my own inadequacy. Yet others demand too much from me. I cannot respond to their constant, emotionally charged requests. I must reject them. These people are my 'enemies'; they put me in danger; and even if I do not admit it to myself, I hate them. Of course, this hatred is only psychological,